So, I just have to get this out of my chest since things are just fcking bad right now...
As the title suggest, I have a master degree in film scoring. I decided to take this route of studying music on higher level for 5 years (bachelor and master degrees) as my first choice in criminology didn't work out. I wanted to study music so bad. I really wanted to focus my time on my passion.
My time during my master degree was awesome. Got to experience a lot of things and got to work on exiting stuff. Got to assist an established composer for his projects which together with my education, was a great experience. There are many positive things to say about this period in my life.
2 Years after my master degree, here I am today, kinda broken, financially.
Its been a lot of struggles. First year after my master degree, I was able to stay afloat from assisting mostly. But for 1 year now, there are no assisting jobs for me to do (not because of bad relationship, just not enough good paying work to need an assistant). My own career hasn't really taken off, no film/game projects has come across me. Only rejections. I get to write trailer music tho which always helps me to have something to work for.
But when corona happened, I tried to be 1 step a head and actually get a day job to bring in some money. I got one at a supermarket and started working there in late June. However, today I got told that this week, my work there ends. The thought was that this was a "summer job" (that was the description of the position) that could turn into more. But unfortunately it stayed as a summer job. So here I am, having to worry about money again..
As my music work don't really bring in any income, I now have to search for a new day job. And thats not always easy....So after reflecting on this, and with the struggles I have. I start to regret my past decisions, rather than getting an education that could turn into a good paying job, and work with my music from there.
I'm 27 years old. I'm starting to see friends around me having kids and houses, having something built up. I have nothing of that, nothing built... Somehow I thought I would be in a better position than this. I know this kind of career can take a long time to build, but fck me....
Sorry for the rant and my poor english... but damn, this is hard. Maybe I was to stupid to not see this coming for me.. Am I thinking about this wrongly?